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As I lay dying With nothing left to do:
I think of all the times
I’ve been betrayed by you.
While I was crying
You wandered my heart.
While you were playing
You were tearing me apart.
I felt completely worthless,
So I wish to take my life.
Suffering from the pain
Caused by the blade of a knife.
Pretty red rain
Falls from her throat;
I wish it were me
Dumped from the boat.
But I’ll wake up,
Now that you’re dead.
Later, go back to sleep
And do it all again.
I’ve seen too much of you
but yet know nothing.
We need to recoil ourselves
so we can become something.
We were but one,
now separated.
I hate you but love you
it get so complicated.
I thought I couldn’t live without you
and it may be true.
We need to sever for now,
if not I may lose you.
Never has anything come between us,
but now we’re far apart
and we need to think
of what we want in our hearts.
Our love felt real,
but now seems like fiction.
I don’t want to lose you:
this is love’s contradiction.